if you hate this world, let’s watch it crumble together
look at me
like you can see straight through my skin into the swirling gore underneath
cry in my arms, baby. let’s stay here for a minute.
.
i made space for you within me
i hid the parts that would no longer fit
someplace safe,
a place where they wouldn’t bother you.
i didn't think i'd forget.
.
i watch my body grow thin and frail.
in steps, my legs find comforting heaviness:
what would i do with more?
i want to hold the whole world in my hands,
i want to crush it between my fingers
i want to beat my face until my eyes swell shut and
i can taste blood and
feel it dripping and
running
exhausted
i look at the sky,
heart pumping poison
into the soil underneath my back
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